passion in phases I Iay my energy low twenty twenty my vision reflections clearing the smoke it’s funny how indecision still makes a mark in my day to day how I’m still late now whether class or the greyhound keep my past in the playground so far from secret I was born a button soufflé or muffin so sweet and seedless liable to fall and collapse on itself with crumbled pieces still you can smell the sweetness the lonely smokey weekends I know they didn’t mean it I can’t forget the gaps cant tell me I’m not kenyan look at how I’m doing laps Im staking every statement on perceptions and perhaps drinking straight out of the tap hold the water till the banks collapse

passion in phases I Iay my energy low twenty twenty my vision reflections clearing the smoke it’s funny how indecision still makes a mark in my day to day how I’m still late now whether class or the greyhound keep my past in the playground so far from secret I was born a button soufflé or muffin so sweet and seedless liable to fall and collapse on itself with crumbled pieces still you can smell the sweetness the lonely smokey weekends I know they didn’t mean it I can’t forget the gaps cant tell me I’m not kenyan look at how I’m doing laps Im staking every statement on perceptions and perhaps drinking straight out of the tap hold the water till the banks collapse

just stay if you don’t mind sit still we can both try im getting everso indecisive with each line like I would hope that a part of coping is me time , but oh well lemme show not tell that pick up the pieces that fell away when I fell back that too familiar smell of burnt gel maybe burnt eyes we keep scrubbing till the dirt rise hoping it’s either on his side or her side never on mine and arms cross like we fight just by telling the time it’s never clearer if your nearer we just blocking the signs like we’ve been here before a ring at the door to tell you i’m still here when the rings hit the floor like sonic on a spike spilling gold from the core keep looking for the why in the pain but there’s more been learning since the day I was born and nowadays I I know there’s love in the things that we don’t say And I’m not here waiting to hear that it’s okay we’ve got a story your telling your own way I’ll still call you even if it’s hard to hear me if I catch the light you’ll see me clearly even if you can’t I wont expect a second glance

I know was being present was a blessing an a curse yeah know it got better way before getting worse Im still making sense past tense futur simple the promise of better pasture seems worse than popping my pimples oh bright lighted city where my love stays I’ll stay thinking of you in my best and my worst days If I didn’t move I wouldn’t have met you in the first place happy to be here still happy that you’re near still

woke up feeling like the trash I couldn’t take out too depressed to cook its looking im getting take out running out of music like I’m waiting for my breakout and stress about me moving means my face starting to breakout - damn like I wish I could check on myself earlier or that I built myself and future plans on something sturdier more that I complain It starts to drain I feel embarrassed like there’s too much to be grateful for so whys it I can’t manage I can’t do this I feel useless in my skin if life’s a game I doubt I’m here to try and win Im happier beside the bench helping others fight their fight the way they told me it was dark so that i’d only see their light so artificial cold carelessly bought and sold I'm fighting to fit a mould feeling foolish family still love me tho and tell me ai can do this but I don’t believe I can barely breathe under all this grey nothing more to say digital decay under all this grey

I got way too many - thoughts at one time tryna cross can’t look both ways w/ two eyes two sided my approach double coffee make a toast too timid to see my limit only far as I approach - ah sorry If I ghost different city new adjustment really feeling like the most love the family I have and miss the family I chose but the blessings all around me can’t resent the path I chose I know it’s only hope that were holding summer came and went the cold is still scolding im only getting older and weaker on either shoulder from bleeker to lower k it’s a week and another day till we don’t find it easier to love or be loved only as the days go pray we find a way slow

I think I hate 23 I think I know less the more that I see I came outside so my EQ could breathe and ego could exit like sand to the sea animosity toward the unknown I got too many messages hitting my phone if I open then close it it’s too close to home like I know it’s annoying I need time alone wait I need a second to meditate I need more vegetables on my plate can’t get up early while sleeping late gimme a drink to alleviate the overthought little mistakes that’s I coulda caught saw that plane ticket I coulda bought when the deposit hits Know Im taking off take it easy feel the breeze and swing your knees the sun is out take a moment try and hold it stead of trying to figure out why I’M here why we here

I wanna tell you that I’m here for you Can’t help but care for you I wanna tell you everything that you already know Like how this world keeps getting darker farther from your glow Like how this world Is laced with empty promises And I dunno how much it helps if we acknowledge it I wanna tell you everything you are and more Ain’t it funny how things go, make a blueprint that fits till we change clothes Make a life plan to stick to then implode Build a cage around a flower just to watch it die slow Ugh I got a love to protect at all costs But I wouldn’t even be here were it not for love lost Who are we to decide if we know or not If we really doomed to die in this melting pot Whether we rise or rot imma stick around Town cause the sparkle in your eyes makes it worth it Have me staying up at night dreaming bout your brown skin gleaming while you smiling at me swear I don’t deserve it Gotta say that perfect doesn’t suit you It could never you justice But really all I need is just this A moment of your time for me to waste As I rhyme my hearts riddles through this cyber space As I sanctify similes that only touch the surface of your melody that remedy For all of life’s afflictions That purple mess , always stressed and best-dressed - and you lying on my chest swear that my only addiction - I’m Terrified I’m gonna drop this diamond And if it ever falls I know you’ll keep on shining And I can’t guarantee that this is perfect timing But it’s right right now , and that’s the reason that I’m smiling And I’m here for you Can’t help but care for you So I can tell you everything that you already know Like how this world keeps getting darker farther from your glow Like how this world Is filled with empty promises And I don't really think it helps if we acknowledge it I wanna tell you everything you are and more Everything you are And more everything you are And more I know you spent some time in life trying to dictate your path Like what a pisstake to make a mistake when given the chance But it’s a lack of planning spanning over generations , warlines and nations that’s got us here, right here to this moment And I swear from what I see our fear the only opponent Seldom scary when you're near me you got my healing component Taught me everyone’s got flaws in them we just gotta own it N’ compassion can’t corrupt you no I swear I won’t condone it No I swear I won’t allow it You say I’m too neurotic And when I get up in my mental I get borderline robotic I try and stop it or drop it so it won’t consume me But the fear still burns unruly Truly Im Doing my best to love myself I swear we all are Uh - Keepin my patience ‘case I jump the gun and fall hard But even a false start couldn’t deter my drive Cause This naivety will breathe in me as long as I’m alive And im here for you Can’t help but care for you I wanna be the one you hate and you complain about Then turn around and tell me I’m who you cant live without That brings some beauty out of all this bullshit And when your heart is broken know I’m there wid a toolkit uh I wanna show you everything I am and more I wanna show you